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I miss Jeremy and my dreams are all weird and mixed up. People aren't acting like they normally would in them, not even my mom which bothers me more. my relationships are all jumbled up in them, and things are half carton sometimes. and normally that wouldn't bother me except that nobody's acting the way they're supposed to. my family was talking about my relationship and sometimes Jeremy was there and sometimes he wasn't, like a TV flickering or something. my mom was showing me this.. toolkit with a bunch of levels of drawers of things I would need for my relationship that she put together with nina for me...except it had this thing in it that she would never really condone or tell me to use and it wasn't like my mom was being an bitch or anything, but that was the problem, she usually is in my dreams... making me do something I don't want to, or making me have to do things behind her back because she freaks out about everything. About the only thing that was normal in that dream was that Eric didn't really have a butt.
*sigh* not a nightmare but more like having to watch a really uncomfortable/wrong scene in a movie without being able to shut your eyes or change the channel.

And someone broke into our neighbor's apartment yesterday, through their bathroom window... which is 4 ft from the railing of the porch and like a 40 ft drop if you fell of the ledge.
Which reminds me, I need to remind whoever keeps leaving the door unlocked to lock it...
so we don't get burgled the easy way.